We kick off this milestone 30th episode with the ultimate icebreaker—Markus taking his tooth out on mic—and what follows is just as raw, honest, and unforgettable.

With 16 months of sobriety, Markus opens up about what finally made this third try at recovery different. After two previous stints in treatment and a pattern of fleeing—either back home or off to chase a relationship—he decided this time would be all in. No more half-measures. Just a simple commitment: say yes to everything that could help him heal.

Markus shares candidly about his diagnoses of anxiety and bipolar depression, and how his mental health struggles both fueled his addiction and complicated recovery. But instead of running this time, he stayed. He didn’t date. He didn’t chase an escape. He turned inward and started doing the hard work—on his identity, his self-worth, and his emotional health.

This episode dives deep into what it really takes to rebuild from the inside out. We talk about what self-esteem looks like in early sobriety, how loneliness can sneak in even when you're doing the right things, and what it means to actually want to live differently.

In a beautiful twist, Markus flips the script mid-conversation and starts interviewing Breezy, asking her if she truly loves herself. What unfolds is a vulnerable exchange about grief, feeling dead inside, and the emotional complexity of connection—including Markus and Breezy’s brief but meaningful romance during his first year sober, and how that connection helped shape his healing.

This episode is about mental health, honest recovery, and learning to stay—not just sober, but present.

🎧 Listen now for a story about radical honesty, emotional growth, and the messy, beautiful work of becoming whole.