Brittany Sivels grew up calling herself a Christian, but in her telling it was a title and nothing more. She describes a childhood with no memory of church, a father who played Scripture in the car until she asked him to turn it off — and it never came back on while she was riding — and a moment as a girl when she said ”OMG,” her mother asked ”where is he?”, and she immediately knew to look up without knowing who he was. By her own account she spent more than two decades submitting to lust and homosexuality. On the outside, she says, people saw someone doing great: a bachelor's degree in IT, a new house, a job. She describes surrendering her life to Christ in March 2020, hearing three words on her bed while worship music played in 2021 — ”Prepare to move” — and eventually going into three days of prayer and fasting. She recounts bringing a trash can to the room with her, getting on her face, and staying in repentance. What she says happened next is where she asks listeners to hear her out.

Kyle and Brittany walk the whole arc: a childhood with no real understanding of who Jesus was, a college friendship with a group from church that had ”what I wanted,” the confession to people who had only ever known her one way, prayer and fasting, deliverance from homosexuality and lust as she describes it, and the warfare she says came afterward — thoughts about the mortgage, the house, and whether she could keep any of it. The conversation goes deep on deliverance and what she believes comes after it, on refusing to compromise whether or not anyone is watching, on why she thinks some people will testify about everything except one thing (”Why won't you ever share that?”), on falling in love with the Psalms and singing them during the fast, on godly desires and Philippians 2:13, on boundaries with people still in a lifestyle you were freed from, and on how her family responded once the truth was out. Near the end, Brittany prays for everyone listening.

The line I keep coming back to is Brittany asking, ”Why won't you ever share that?” She wasn't pointing at anybody. She was describing the one thing most of us have decided we will take to the grave, and she said it out loud about herself first. That's the whole reason this show exists. If you're listening and there's a thing you've never told anyone — not a pastor, not a friend, not out loud — my prayer is that God would meet you exactly there, that he would give you back that first love Brittany prayed for at the end of this episode, and that you would not have to carry it alone one more year. He is not shocked by it. Lord, find them.

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The one outside resource named in the episode is Covenant Eyes, which Brittany mentions in passing as an example of an accountability tool — her suggestion, not an endorsement or a sponsorship. This episode is not sponsored.

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Brittany's account of what God did in her life is her own testimony; we present it as her account, not as established fact, and we encourage you to weigh everything against Scripture.

”And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death.” — Revelation 12:11 (KJV)